So I've decided to :)

Document days with photos.
Fulfill a dream with him.
Give us a chance in working things out.
Forgive him.
Make him heal me.
Not give up on us without a fight.
Eat icecream and go for a walk with him.
Share our burdens together.
To guide him and make him a better man.
And Allah isA helps me
Salam Salam!
He kissed my forehead..so sweet :)

March 22nd!

Perfect in its own way. My first bouquet <3 <3

A wake up quote!

They try to get you to spend all your time trying to figure out what you can do and how you must change to make everything better. That way you don't see how he is setting himself up as the center and only thing in your world." Joanna Hunter

“Compassion is sometimes the fatal capacity for feeling what it is like to live inside somebody else's skin. It is the knowledge that there can never really be any peace and joy for me until there is peace and joy finally for you too.”
~ Frederick Buechner <----This is Empathy.... this is what abusive personalities do not know how to feel, what they do not have.

Being lied to, cheated on & having your heart broken, makes it harder to trust people, believe in & or fall in love.

“It is inevitable that some defeat will enter
even the most victorious life. The human spirit is never finished when
it is defeated...it is finished when it surrenders.”Ben Stein

You, as much as anyone in the entire universe, deserve your love and your affection.~ Buddha

"Success
means having the courage, the determination, and the will to become the
person you believe you were meant to be." George Sheehan

''Voting day'' what an experience!

Kan yom 7elw awi....w2fna shwia fel line bas we voted for the first time. I voted No. Cause I believe you can't build something great on a rocky base. And starting over means a new page, not an erased one. The result came out today. 14 million voters said Yes..only 4 million said No. I accept it and hope for the best insha2 allah.
El facebook kan ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..kol status feeha the words pink finger...w ana mesh salbi w soba3i bambi. 2alsheen kal 3ada bas bn7bohom <3<3
El masryeeeeeen <3
Salam Salam :)

I matter!

Set up boundaries for the way you want to be treated from now on, don't ever settle for anything less. You deserve to be loved for who you are and to be treated with respect and dignity always. Some things in life do not or ever will never make sense, narcissists and abusers are two of those things.
Quote from an emotional abuse article.

Healing begins now!

I'm gonna heal myself.
I'll pursue my dreams no matter what.
My dreams are a reality which WILL BE!
I'll believe, love and encourage myself.
I'll face my problems, divide them in pieces and deal with them.
I'll ask for help when I need it.
I'll only do the things I want.
I'll trust myself and my own judgement.
I'll appreciate everything I have.
And I'll NEVER apologize for things that wasn't my fault.
I'll remember WHY I left.
And I WILL heal.
I won't be in an emotionally and mentally abusive relationship ever again!!
El 7amdollah!

The End Of You!

It was a terrible confrontation. It was hard seeing him..hard looking at him..hard saying the words. But I did it. I know I'll cry like a baby..probably lose a part of me forever, but I'll be fine. I hope. I'll write him a goodbye letter and give myself closure (when I'm ready), start a new page of my life without him. I loved him with all my heart. I won't regret this experience.
El 7amdollah rab el 3almeen.
Full stop!