Tell her you love her

Tell her you love her..repeatedly!

Tell her you love her...you show her

Lonliness

I want to leave.

I want out of this.

You don't make me feel anything. You don't make me feel happy, and you don't make me feel sad.

I feel loneliness.

Drugs

Clean outfit, nails polished, makeup done. And Nari looks so pretty.

Oh so fucking pretty and we have a birthday to attend. And I don't feel right. I don't feel happy or in love or even okay.

I feel sad. But I get up and finish what I have to finish. I put on my smile just as fake lashes, comes easy.

I'm nearly done and I feel something beside sad. I feel numb.

It's my drug.

Simple concepts

Fake it till you make it.
Fake happy, maybe you'll be it someday.
I've never thought that I would be that type of person.
So full of anger and bitterness now.
Spreading poison since 89,
Nari

Shortie..

I just remembered something that I want to document. It's sorta ironic and funny I guess.
I finally got the guts to throw some of my ex's things which he got for me...on the same day that he got married. (Not on the day I found out he was getting married). I was just cleaning up my wardrobe and organizing actually.

Why the hell didn't I do this earlier?

I know my blog is extremely boring and lacking everything fun and colorful I'll put more effort in it I promise.

Nariman

The exorcism of the Exes

It's so hard to see your Ex moving on and see that their life might have gotten better.
While you on the otherhand are trying your hardest to only fix what that ex had so thoroughly damaged.
But it only hurt for minutes though. I know that I AM happy without him. My life even if it sucks rightnow, is much better with him out of it.
I only want to move on like he did, that's all.
On another note I've resigned from my job and found another.
But it's a better everything. So I'm excited!
For a better life..

Midnight rambling

I remember once I read in an article about relationships, that you've to respect and admire the one you're with, like be proud to be with them and love them.
Proud to have children together, that will also look up to them and somehow be like them in a sort.

At the time, I realized that I didn't really respected my ex, I thought him immature and I didn't like it.
Though I loved him, but something was missing. I thought I can't really marry this guy, and have kids and go on with this life. Cause one day the kids will grow older and see how you view eachother and understand.
My mom used to complain about my dad's mannerisms all the time while we're really young and that's fucked up.

And I don't wanna be my parents. Ever!

If you can't respect their way of thinking and accept their differences, then you're making a huge mistake, tying yourself to someone you plan to criticise everyday and smother for the rest of your life, and viceversa, being with someone who constantly points out the bad in you.
Huge huge mistake.
I'm still single by the way.

Happy easter!
Nariman