Nari Graduates!

My results are out!!!!!! I graduated with ''good'' grade on the last five years. Y3ni gayed tarakomi. And a ''Very good" grade on the graduation project alone! I'm more happy with the graduation project, since I'd worked on that thing for 3 long excruciating months, don't mean to brag but I also went through my break up during it. So it's a pretty out come of what I've been through. Kolo be fadl Rabbi tab3an :)
الحمد لله رب العالمين
Nari (the fresh graduate),

Where's that place where I can rest my head?

I feel trapped and suffocated. I'm being watched, criticized and judged everyday. I hate that. I hate that to avoid that I have to get away from the house. I have to extend my out hours and regretting not staying out longer the minute I come home. Mind peace and clarity is impossible here, if not impossible it's really really hard to do. Pissed off and angry from the constant criticism in the form of ''I want the best for you shit", "Stay away from these people, I don't want them in your life", and when I try to fight back and argue which is rare and always unpleasant, I hear this "I don't want you to make mistakes". Wow! Ouch! I know the difference between protecting and suffocating. But this is too freaking much! Too much that thinking about it and replaying the same scenarios gives me headaches and an extreme amount of bitterness. When is the part where she finally lets go, watch me as I stumble across my own path in my own life. That's why I feel fucked up, cause I'm too closed in, no wonder I am naive. Not stupid in any way, but just naive as in trusting. And when I trust the wrong person, I get blamed too. I can't differ between the right person and the wrong person. I only take my bitterness by hitting on the poor the keyboard and sharing it in my blog which just spreads negativity and bitterness on innocent bloggers who were unlucky enough to stumble upon it, which reflects by more bitterness in me and the self loathing starts. I write very long sentences that I can't read with one breath.
Too bitter and fighting tears for your own good,
Nari.

Kinda of update!

I'm waiting for my results, it's not out yet, Thanks to our stupid educational system/routine.
I'm looking for a job, flying my resume everywhere.
I'm drawing and doodling on photoshop more now, which is good.
I don't feel Ramadan at all, I don't know why. Ramadan and summer is an unbalanced equation I guess.
I cook a lot with mama, everyday =D
I miss my friends.
I miss my ex, sometimes. It's weird, one day I miss him and can't cope, and another I'm fine w feel like better off.
I'm wearing a blueish green (Fayroozi) nail polish, It's A-mazing! A Luna brand. Love it <3
My hair is longer! Nice!
I'm reading a lot lot lot.
I listen to Abd El Halim radio channel.
I hate/love Tracy Chapman. There's this song called the promise. It's so heartbreaking. Don't listen to it. A blow that hits home :(
I don't tweet enough.
I've lost a friend. The type you regret giving your number to. Painful though, and somehow I end up being the bad person, their view of course not mine.
I went to Prom :D It was fun, I didn't win any title...some cheated during prom votes. But I've been nominated to Queen, Best dress and Most creative :D
W eh tany?
His birthday on 28th...ignore it? or at least write on his wall?
That would be all of all!
Adios!

Ramadan is here!

How does time pass so fast? Can't believe that it has been a year! *sigh* Ramadan Karim everyone, everywhere, I hope you're happy and well wherever you are.
Kol sana w ento taybeen :)
Love,
Nariman

Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget

"As much as I struggled not to think of him, I did not struggle to forget. I worried—late in the night, when the exhaustion of sleep deprivation broke down my defenses—that it was all slipping away. That my mind was a sieve, and I would someday not be able to remember the precise color of his eyes, the feel of his skin, or the texture of his voice. I could not think of them, but I must remember them. Because there was just one thing that I had to believe to be able to live—I had to know that he existed. That was all. Everything else I could endure. So long as he existed."

— S. Meyer

Good Music Post!

See, one thing I'm crazy and so passionate about is GOOD music. I discovered this amazing band by chance and decided to share =D

First song Tracy Chapman Cover By Boyce Avenue. So good!

Second song is an original...called find me <3

Also an amazing original...called More things to say.
*sigh*

That's enough for now. I recommend you to check their songs. I like Adele's rolling in the deep cover by them, and Taylor Swift's last kiss by also them. I'm gonna be obsessed with this band for days :D Yaaaaaay!
Nari,

The day I graduated!

I know it's been a while since my last post. I got busy with the project, working on it day and night. It all payed off, I'm proud of it and the effort I spent doing it. My friends' support was amazing during the last month and the last five years. College is over. And this new part of my life I'll start it with hope and determination. I stood behind while people came to see the graduation projects. I saw them holding up the Comics I wrote and drew. I saw them laughing and squealing about how funny and pretty it looks. It was a tear shedding sight. My family are the most amazing people in the world. My mom came to help me. She was so proud of me. Everyone was there.  Except one. But now it doesn't matter. It doesn't hurt. Cause all who matters to me was there. The hugs and the encouragement was enough for me. Thank God for everything I've been through. My project is about me and my ex. Just with a few tweaks. I'll post it soon isa. Now that was wednesday.

Thrusday I went college to attend the show of Animation Grad. projects. I bought cupcakes to my closest friends. And got them each a card and wrote in it. Hoha gave me the ''bone crushing hug''. It was a surprise and a gift for all that they have done for me during the last 5 years. They were so happy. I was elated to see them that way. I love them dearly. I'm filled with positive energy and happy smiles. I hope reading this post gives you a small dose of positive energy. Remember your friends and next time you see them hug them for being there for you. Send them a text that shows your appreciation. It's all about the people around you that picks you up everytime you fall. :D
Bas keda :)
Nari (the graduate)