I feel like I'm fading into the background. A new thing came into my life, it's consuming me. I'm giving up dreams and hopes for that certain thing. I can't keep doing that. It's not me, not what I want to become. Change is necessary, but not to that person, the one who sees life by another being, a reflection of another person..so dependent..so pathetic! Is it me or is it him? I don't know.