Wrapping up October!

Hello world! =) Wass up? hehe I've always wanted to say that :D
I've been really stupid lately, wallowing in misery induced and negative energy. I quit work and I've not got out much. Somehow I developed a bubble of self doubt and negativity. Questioning every decision I've made, comparing and trying to come to terms with everything that happened during this year (The wrong way of course) It only got me depressed more. So I'm wrapping up this shit and throwing it away for good. I'm not gonna ask questions and wonder about the people who could answer them. I don't want them. I don't need them. It's okay. It has been a rough year, I think it was so for everybody. Okay so I'm gonna be positive from now on, you should do it too.
I love you, and I appreciate my followers very very much! I love reading your feedback and comments :)
Nari,

I need that somebody

I hope that someday, somebody wants to hold you for twenty minutes straight, and that’s all they do. They don’t pull away. They don’t look at your face, they don’t try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms, without an ounce of selfishness in it.

Waitress

Falling Trees

I'm awake, I shouldn't.
I break a promise or two. My head is throbbing.
My bed is occupied. My stomach rumbles. Adele is in the background. I'm questioning a lot, I'm thinking too much. I want coffee. I silently pray for some clarity. I'm worried about things out of my control. I'm caring too much and it actually means that I care, like caring supposed to be. I'm not making sense. I feel lost. Is anything real? This is random. I like short confusing sentences, I should use less adjectives. My words should be flat and cold like my emotions.
I'm not signing this time.

Good Morning, World!

Good morning, World :) It's anything but lovely here in Egypt, since Maspeiro horrible attacks that occurred  this week. The streets are completely cold, calm, as if nothing happened, The stadium was flooding people like always, they watched the match, they cheered and laughed, and like nothing at all happened. They walk the street where the blood on the asphalt is still warm. It breaks my heart. I didn't change my profile picture updating to recent events, but my heart is with the martyrs and their families. I see no difference between a Muslim and Christian. I see none. Anyway, it's a brand new morning, I hope today is a better day for me and for everyone. I woke up at 5 AM, thanks to Nargess (my cat). And I'm going work in a while. I didn't get into the ITI scholarship, but it's okay, I had a plan B already :) I'm listening to Tracy Chapman this morning, she puts me in such a great mood :)
I love those lyrics:
Hunger only for a taste of justice 
Hunger only for a world of truth 
'Cause all that you have is your soul 
Have a bright day :)
Nariman