Update.

My cat "Farid'' died today.
N,

Eloisa To Abelard by Alexander Pope

I love the poem.. crazy about it since watching Eternal Sunshine Of A Spotless Mind.
Verses from the poem:

No, fly me, fly me, far as pole from pole;

Rise Alps between us! and whole oceans roll!

Ah, come not, write not, think not once of me,

Nor share one pang of all I felt for thee.

And this part that was quoted in the movie,

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!

The world forgetting, by the world forgot.

Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!

Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd

The way Mary ( Kirsten Dunst)  said this part touched me a lot.. :)

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind - The Scientist

One More Fail

When you regret caring and showing kindness to a certain person, then may be you're neither kind nor caring of a person. No, not even the slightest. It's cruel and also sad.
Thank you *sarcasm*
N,

Resurface!

It's different. Somethings have changed. And it's as natural as two magnets pulling together, as two puzzle pieces uniting perfectly. I let go. Today, I didn't remember you, I didn't think about you. And I thank God for creating us the way we are, and our forgetful human mind, for forgetting you even just for a few hours. It was a bliss, it was just what I needed. It was me letting go and finally having fun. I surprise myself by being good towards those who do not deserve it. Either naivety or kindness, It's totally me. I accept that. I miss you though, I miss you a lot actually, But I've missed my smile and freedom more. I've missed my old young care free self.
I think I can let you go now, and by doing that, I'm breaking open and free. I may not be happy like I was today. And there will be a lot of times that I feel vulnerable and wish your presence back. But that's okay. I'll find pleasures in other stuff. I won't depend on anyone again. People are not pillars and I learned that from you. I thank God for today that made me feel like a 5 year old. Thank God for my amazing beautiful sisters. And I thank God for everything that I've been through and every lesson I've learned.
Nari,

The 68th post!

Be thankful for what you have; you'll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you don't have, you will never, ever have enough - Oprah Winfrey
That's it.
Nari