Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Simple and Short

Happy Eid, everyone, everywhere! Take a deep breath and enjoy :))))
High on Eid spirit,

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Fast Car

Tongue Tie

I've nothing to say and everything at the same time. I wrote how today will be, I planned it a few months ago. But I'm not the same person right? I wish I could break my silence for once. And for just once you'll be able to hear me.
It's a big day today, on so many levels

Monday, August 22, 2011

Someone Like You

Adele is so amazing and talented. I can relate to her words in the beginning of the video as well as the song. Such good music. Listen listen listen :D

Friday, August 12, 2011

Nari Graduates!

My results are out!!!!!! I graduated with ''good'' grade on the last five years. Y3ni gayed tarakomi. And a ''Very good" grade on the graduation project alone! I'm more happy with the graduation project, since I'd worked on that thing for 3 long excruciating months, don't mean to brag but I also went through my break up during it. So it's a pretty out come of what I've been through. Kolo be fadl Rabbi tab3an :)
الحمد لله رب العالمين
Nari (the fresh graduate),

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Where's that place where I can rest my head?

I feel trapped and suffocated. I'm being watched, criticized and judged everyday. I hate that. I hate that to avoid that I have to get away from the house. I have to extend my out hours and regretting not staying out longer the minute I come home. Mind peace and clarity is impossible here, if not impossible it's really really hard to do. Pissed off and angry from the constant criticism in the form of ''I want the best for you shit", "Stay away from these people, I don't want them in your life", and when I try to fight back and argue which is rare and always unpleasant, I hear this "I don't want you to make mistakes". Wow! Ouch! I know the difference between protecting and suffocating. But this is too freaking much! Too much that thinking about it and replaying the same scenarios gives me headaches and an extreme amount of bitterness. When is the part where she finally lets go, watch me as I stumble across my own path in my own life. That's why I feel fucked up, cause I'm too closed in, no wonder I am naive. Not stupid in any way, but just naive as in trusting. And when I trust the wrong person, I get blamed too. I can't differ between the right person and the wrong person. I only take my bitterness by hitting on the poor the keyboard and sharing it in my blog which just spreads negativity and bitterness on innocent bloggers who were unlucky enough to stumble upon it, which reflects by more bitterness in me and the self loathing starts. I write very long sentences that I can't read with one breath.
Too bitter and fighting tears for your own good,

Friday, August 5, 2011

Kinda of update!

I'm waiting for my results, it's not out yet, Thanks to our stupid educational system/routine.
I'm looking for a job, flying my resume everywhere.
I'm drawing and doodling on photoshop more now, which is good.
I don't feel Ramadan at all, I don't know why. Ramadan and summer is an unbalanced equation I guess.
I cook a lot with mama, everyday =D
I miss my friends.
I miss my ex, sometimes. It's weird, one day I miss him and can't cope, and another I'm fine w feel like better off.
I'm wearing a blueish green (Fayroozi) nail polish, It's A-mazing! A Luna brand. Love it <3
My hair is longer! Nice!
I'm reading a lot lot lot.
I listen to Abd El Halim radio channel.
I hate/love Tracy Chapman. There's this song called the promise. It's so heartbreaking. Don't listen to it. A blow that hits home :(
I don't tweet enough.
I've lost a friend. The type you regret giving your number to. Painful though, and somehow I end up being the bad person, their view of course not mine.
I went to Prom :D It was fun, I didn't win any title...some cheated during prom votes. But I've been nominated to Queen, Best dress and Most creative :D
W eh tany?
His birthday on 28th...ignore it? or at least write on his wall?
That would be all of all!

Monday, August 1, 2011

Ramadan is here!

How does time pass so fast? Can't believe that it has been a year! *sigh* Ramadan Karim everyone, everywhere, I hope you're happy and well wherever you are.
Kol sana w ento taybeen :)