Such. A. Shame.
Friday, November 6, 2015
There was this cartoon that I loved much as a kid. I kept watching over and over cause I had it taped. It was about two baby penguins and an adventure they go through. It was dubbed and renamed as Lolo and Bebe. It's the reason I love penguins. It's the reason I called you penguin. I told you that day to remind me to tell you something. I was gonna tell that story to you but I guess now you'll never know.
Saturday, October 31, 2015
I hate you. I hate your face, your sunken cheeks, I hate your lifeless expressions. I hate you for what you did to me. I hate that you made me hate you. I hate you for making me hate myself. I hate your weakness. I hate you for giving up on us. I hate that I still miss you everyday. I hate that I feel lost without you. I hate crying over you. I hate my depression the most. I hate it all.
Saturday, September 12, 2015
I loved you cause you're kind and sweet. I saw all your flaws and silenced every little voice in my head screaming to run away.
I wanted to be happy and make you happy. I wanted you to make me happy. My life is complete. I don't need you to complete it, yet I couldn't find you when I needed you. I felt lonely. You're so busy being confused and hesitated about everything to even care for someone else. And I told you from the start, I do what I do. I'm an abandoner. I try and do my best and wait till something changes, till there's something to give me hope or get me to hold on. There's nothing. Nothing. Dead end.