Here's the thing,
I don't deal well with situations, with heartbreaks, even death.
I don't know what to do when someone dies, it's like I avoid thinking about them,
I avoid remembering them. I avoid speaking about them.
And it's the same with every person I lose, whether by life or by death.
I bottle things up, shut people out, never talk, never show.
Even when I try to talk, cause people wants to know, cause people wants to feel good about themselves. They want to be there, for the sake of being there.
Even then, I feel worse, just like reopening a wound. Cause I do my best, dealing by not dealing at all, and I fail at it.
And that's how life goes.