Clean outfit, nails polished, makeup done. And Nari looks so pretty.
Oh so fucking pretty and we have a birthday to attend. And I don't feel right. I don't feel happy or in love or even okay.
I feel sad. But I get up and finish what I have to finish. I put on my smile just as fake lashes, comes easy.
I'm nearly done and I feel something beside sad. I feel numb.
It's my drug.