Wrapping up October!

Hello world! =) Wass up? hehe I've always wanted to say that :D
I've been really stupid lately, wallowing in misery induced and negative energy. I quit work and I've not got out much. Somehow I developed a bubble of self doubt and negativity. Questioning every decision I've made, comparing and trying to come to terms with everything that happened during this year (The wrong way of course) It only got me depressed more. So I'm wrapping up this shit and throwing it away for good. I'm not gonna ask questions and wonder about the people who could answer them. I don't want them. I don't need them. It's okay. It has been a rough year, I think it was so for everybody. Okay so I'm gonna be positive from now on, you should do it too.
I love you, and I appreciate my followers very very much! I love reading your feedback and comments :)
Nari,

I need that somebody

I hope that someday, somebody wants to hold you for twenty minutes straight, and that’s all they do. They don’t pull away. They don’t look at your face, they don’t try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms, without an ounce of selfishness in it.

Waitress

Falling Trees

I'm awake, I shouldn't.
I break a promise or two. My head is throbbing.
My bed is occupied. My stomach rumbles. Adele is in the background. I'm questioning a lot, I'm thinking too much. I want coffee. I silently pray for some clarity. I'm worried about things out of my control. I'm caring too much and it actually means that I care, like caring supposed to be. I'm not making sense. I feel lost. Is anything real? This is random. I like short confusing sentences, I should use less adjectives. My words should be flat and cold like my emotions.
I'm not signing this time.

Good Morning, World!

Good morning, World :) It's anything but lovely here in Egypt, since Maspeiro horrible attacks that occurred  this week. The streets are completely cold, calm, as if nothing happened, The stadium was flooding people like always, they watched the match, they cheered and laughed, and like nothing at all happened. They walk the street where the blood on the asphalt is still warm. It breaks my heart. I didn't change my profile picture updating to recent events, but my heart is with the martyrs and their families. I see no difference between a Muslim and Christian. I see none. Anyway, it's a brand new morning, I hope today is a better day for me and for everyone. I woke up at 5 AM, thanks to Nargess (my cat). And I'm going work in a while. I didn't get into the ITI scholarship, but it's okay, I had a plan B already :) I'm listening to Tracy Chapman this morning, she puts me in such a great mood :)
I love those lyrics:
Hunger only for a taste of justice 
Hunger only for a world of truth 
'Cause all that you have is your soul 
Have a bright day :)
Nariman

Another one for the hazel eyed

Dearest M,
I really wish you could see yourself clearly, I really wish you believe me when I tell you that you're a good person. My opinion isn't biased, trust me. I hope you achieve all of your dreams and goals. It would be nice if you get to know your youngest sister. And I admire how close you are with your family. I admire your loyalty and friendship. I understand that you're human, and you've made mistakes, though I will never understand the concept behind them, but I won't ask for an explanation either. On my part I forgive you, wholly and sincerely, I may never forget it completely, but I promise it won't affect our friendship, now you have to forgive yourself too. Accept your mistakes. And stop reminding me of it :) I can see that you've changed, that you've grown out of a bad experience. You're not frozen in time anymore, you actually the opposite. I have a feeling that you can accomplish anything you want. Just never give up on your dreams, fight till the end and fight for 5 more minutes after the end :) And quit whatever you wanna quit, change the things that you thought you never could. You've a blank canvas to color it, all the colors you have. There are people waiting for you to help them and study for them  -and like I say- carry them above your shoulders. Promise me you'll always see the positive side before the negative one, that even if I'm not here to tell you that it's okay, you'll hear me say it. This is getting too long, But I owe you a thank you, a BIG THANK YOU, for all that you've done for me, for cheering me up and being there when I needed you, for the amazing support and patience when I make fun on your account :) Thank you :)
Yours,
Nariman

Hazel eyed with a caffeine addiction!

I don't know, I hate not knowing! I hate not knowing what you want from me, why do I feel like you need me as your crutch, what do you see in me? Why can't you stop being nice to me? And I don't know why you are! Who are you? Which side are you on? Are you here to hurt or to heal? I don't need this, I don't want anyone depending on me, but somehow I want to help you, I want you to be happy, and all the while I don't want to care. I can't help myself though, This is gonna bring me to tears and end bad, I can only pretend that I forgot what you've done to me. I remember a faint feeling everytime I talk to you, but I push it down, I push away all the bitterness it brings, and focus on you. Focus on now, not then. The past is buried deep deep down. Please don't resurrect it. Please!
Nariman,

Things that brighten my day

Reading quotation pics

Eating something delicious 

Nargess, she's our newest kitten :D My cats make me happy :D

Cheering someone up, usually it's a friend

Coffee or a latte'

Icecream was invented by happy fairies :D

Going out to work, and coming back with a good mood :D

Pictures makes a blog a fun place right?
I think so,
N